To survive or to suffer

assalamualaikum.. hye~

to survive or to suffer, which one do you choose??
the choice is in your hand..
if you ask me.. absolutely i want to survive.. yeay..

but how??
the problem arise when the things become expensive
and the best thing is,, the person with higher position will live in luxurious life
while WE the lower person in community that dont have any power will live in a miserable life
and yet we are the one that working 100 times harder than the above person

is it fair enough..
thingking about our "wawasan 2020" can we achieve it..
there are 2 answers :

1. we cant achieve it
2. we can achieve it but most of our people would having a hard time to survive..

this thought keep appears in my mind, maybe one day we might be the poorer country in this world (ya ALLAH avoid it from us) aamiin..

then i come to my conclusion, i want to survive.. i need to fly away from here.. or else i will suffer from this suffocating place..

become a bird with wings....

let it go or hold on tight

assalamualaikum and hye~

i had been busy with my daily activities, got no time to update my story here but now i got it.. hehe..
hmm, the long unfinished feeling or matter..
but i realized it now after my best friend make me come back to the reality.. my beloved friend capital "T"
she's the one that hold on to me when im falling apart..
when i lose all of my hopes
when i lose my other friends, being ignored (well, that is my own fault, im the one that made them act like that)
but deep inside of me, i wish they would hold onto me that very moment, but in the end they didn't..

after almost 6 years now i realized,
you can see it takes a long journey of my life for me to realize it
the late realization isn't so bad
the bad thing would occur if the realization never met my mind

now eventhough im still doubting whether to let it go or hold on tight
i have been thinking this matter over million of times
make my sleepless night worth it (i pray for it)

truthfully, deep inside, to the YOU, I really hope we can make some sweet memories together
but with your ego i dont think we can make it.. you know what i mean..

and here i want to make some confession,
to the YOU, the one that i like for a long time
if you incoincidently read my blog
i mean this blog
don't know if you know about this blog..
hope you know who you are
the one that i gave those STARS...

now at this moment, this day, this month, this year, this hour, this minutes,this seconds of time
01/10/2014 @ 20:33 H
I'm officially letting you go with all of my heart..

if you want to trace it back, i dont think you want to trace this feeling back..
YOU know i;m the first but there's got the second that would win it all..
i learn being the first are not the issues but being the last are the winner of all..

me and my broken heart,
>>>me<<<

p/s; Back then, I'm fidgeting to post this or not.. and now today 170317 I made a decision.. It's not that I forget but I'm trying to keep that piece of broken heart remains calm and strong.. I remember 1/10/2014 are the date that my other friend confess to me that she like YOU too although she knows our story.. What else should I sacrifice for her now, if what I do back then still not enough..


sincerely,

n@w@
all is mine~