assalamualaikum and hye..
I have been busy with my work.. I think the one reason I'm still not married yet because I'm married with my work.. can't I? HEHEHE..
Let me start it, hmm.. this things had bother me long time ago, first when you do it with your other friend and I knew her.. My gut feeling that time "would you do the same thing to me". As years pass by, we look like an index finger and ring finger, near can't be separated.. You teach me so many things as I'm the one that always listen.. I stop telling you my problems and stories cause you would judge me and said otherwise.. You would say "maybe this, maybe that", but I just want someone to heard all my complaint.. I accept you for not listening to me cause I love us..
2014, You asked me about one particular person, "Is that the one" and I replied "Yes".. Then you start talking to that person.. And you once told me, you like that person too.. Can't you understand me that moment when I heard that.. It just the same thing that happen back then.. And dear I made a huge decision then to forget my own feelings and let you in.. I stop all my feeling of wanting to care for that person, though I remember that person birthday I didn't wish that person.. Just pray from a far, may that person remains healthy.. Always my prayer for that person..
Can't you see that I value us more than that person because I knew what it feels to lose the one that you love and care about, F.R.I.E.N.D.. It happen before and I really learnt from it..
But you simply said I'm jealous with you.. The moment I want to reply your text but you already made your own assumption and then it hit me.. what more can I say if that's what you think of me..
It's oke dear, you not lose anything because I'm the one that losing.. You got so many good friends that is better than me.. I just want you to know that back then I'm willing to forget my own feeling and still I'm doing it now.. You may not understand me because you never try..
You get me or not? Still you not get it.. It's OKE, I'm used too.. Thanks for being there when I needed you the most and thanks for leaving me now when I'm needed you as well..
Just you know that I'm not the one that leaving.. You should know me well that I'm the person that needed time to think first before I say anything.. You leave me first, you gave up first.. Thanks for giving me up.. Hence, there are the things that I still don't know, maybe this is one of it..
all is mine,
n@w@
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