"First Love"

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oke back to the topic..
waa~ hehehe.. what a controversial topic we have here..^^
I know everybody have their first love or crush..
Please raise your leg if you said you are never fall in love with someone..hehe..

So, the story start when I'm 13 years old..
I ask my mom "Mom, is it oke for me to have a crush?"
my mom replied "wwwhhhhaaaaatttttttt"(5 octave voice)..
"you are still young, don't even think about other love except mom's love"
immediately at that moment i lost my word..

then the waiting event come...the things that all teenager experience..

3 years later after the incidence of asking my mom about having a crush..
I had a crush with my own friend..
A charming guy (at that time)..
for the first time I feel that feeling..
I didn't told my mom about that (she might kill me).. hehe..
Funny thing about me are I ignore my own feeling and deny it all the time until
one day that guy like my best friend (Miss N)

You know my heart at that time,
feel it being thrown outside the window and broke into pieces..
like when you drop a glass..
 But I'm a really stubborn, then I act like I'm strong person and ignore them..

Unfortunately, there are big mistake that I made..
Got one nice, blessed and lovely day
that guy confess to me that he was ONCE liking me..
but I misunderstood it and being emotional.. (woman).. hehe
I got carried away by emotion, then problems appear..

It is really a tiny problem but I make it complicated..
So, until now I feel so alone without my best friend Miss N..
the things is, I lost my other best friend too...
It affects a lot on our relationship..
Miss N, I know she already know about it..
what can I do??
I just hope and pray that she and the others can forgive me..

That's it, my first love end up~

it's me
all is mine
n@w@ >_<